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I'm at a loss... I don't know what to say. My oldest cousin just died. I'm shaking and upset. It's not right! Six car collision! Six cars and my cousin had to be the only fatality. He was going to get married in May. And I... I'm sad and upset and I don't know what else. I really want to see my brother. I... I don't know what to do or how to feel. Or what to think. I am going to see my brother this week. That's for sure. Life is so short. I really wish I was there for him right now. I've got a massive headache.